little beluga

the bump
babycenter
fit pregnancy
the daily kick
parents community
pregnancy weekly
planning family

these are just some of the websites i look at, emails i receive, and info i've gathered from for the past 9 months. these sites have become part of my morning routine after (literally) rolling out of bed, heading straight to relieve my bladder (before it seemingly feels like its going to do it on its own - with or without the proper setting), fixing myself breakfast, and sitting down at our computer. though the majority of these sites all say the same thing each day, it gives me a small sense of peace as i read each article, search each recall, and smile at each little baby photo/story. i have no idea how to be a mom..but there is a sort of comfort in at least reading about it. even IF its a shallow couple of hours in searching for the perfectly cute and trendy diaper bag...and shamelessly coveting the one coach has designed.

i'm feeling really good, still. this little babe is getting big and taking a toll on all the organs that surround her. i still can't believe we will have a little person living with us in 2 weeks. i can't believe i will no longer be at home alone all day, bored out of my mind. i can't believe we will have a third person to feed, dress, load in the car, and take everywhere we go. i think about all of the things i have to do to get myself out the door...and still manage to forget something(s). hopefully she is never one of them. ;) even sitting here, i start zoning out on how different life will look. our house has been taken over by her pack n play, bouncer, swing, high chair, bassinet, bottles, etc. packed in her drawers and in her closet hangs more outfits than even i own. ok, thats a lie...but the girl has a wardrobe, for sure! i feel like the idea and preparation for her to get here has already changed our lives so much...its crazy in realizing that it hasn't even BEGUN yet.

BUT. She is and will be loved so very much...with or without the trendy diaper bag.