these next few words are filled with nothing but meaningless venting.
looking for, finding, pursuing, purchasing, and waiting to get this house has possibly been one of the most frustrating things i have ever done. ever. another delay...and we now have to wait til after we get back from vacation to close on it...instead of closing tomorrow. part of me feels like its never going to happen. or its going to burn down to the ground before we even get the chance to sign the papers. grrr.
on a happier note, i am still picking out paint and looking at a bagillion different decorating ideas for each room in the house. i am so obsessed with this baby room, its ridiculous. and i'm pretty sure it will end up being my favorite room in the whole house. i still can't really wrap my mind around everything that is happening around me. crazy.
i got sunburned today. my face is tight and red. i can't lay out there like i used to. i'd rather a nap in the AC, please.
a cruise to cozumel in THREE days will put my little self to ease.. :)
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
after a couple weeks of up-and-downs, we finally have an answer on our house. today we got the loan and close NEXT THURSDAY. i found out about 5 hours ago and am STILL in disbelief. i'm excited and scared and so happy and real nervous. but so thankful that it has all worked out and i can soon bid farewell to the three flights of stairs i climb every single day, the speed bumps that TAKE OVER our drive into our apartment, and the annoying U-Turn we have to take every time we enter the complex.
this new home will be a place we can really settle into, make our own, and grow. i am beyond thrilled :)
this new home will be a place we can really settle into, make our own, and grow. i am beyond thrilled :)
Monday, April 12, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
updates:
- i need to apologize to my pretty little hydrangea's that matt bought for me a couple of weeks ago. i had high hopes for these little guys...but i will never have a green thumb. ever. sorry pretty petals. i did my best.
- i am a sorry excuse for a house wife these days. totally unacceptable when your husband runs out of his skibbies because you're not keeping up on laundry. i'm definitely not doing my best in that area...and need to be better. and don't even get me STARTED on cooking dinner. ugh.
- i had the worst dream about my little sister last night. it dealt with trampling horses and broken bones. all the while, i just stood there and watched. it woke me up and i just couldn't fall back to sleep. matt never dreams. i envy that.
- i am obsessed with looking at baby rooms. its kind of pathetic. i still don't have any set ideas, and really need to find out what this little person is going to be so i have a better idea of what to go off of. two more weeks!
- school's out for the summer in two weeks as well! then we're going on a cruise in three. i love my lifeee.
- i am really into Christy Nockels lately. Sandra McCracken is definitely a favorite of mine, too. her new album is coming out the end of this month and i am so pumped. love her hymns.
- speaking of hymns, i am missing indiana. they hold revival weeks and this week is one of them. you don't realize it at the time, but i took those evenings for granted. such great words spoken in those messages. God really moves.
- do you ever really loathe your attitude? i've become more and more convicted of mine the past couple of weeks. its to the point where i can't stand myself, and have a certain relationship suffering because of it. i am so selfish and set in my own ways of thinking. its not fair. its really ugly. and i really need to get over myself. "and they will know us by our love."
alright! laundry time! :)
- i need to apologize to my pretty little hydrangea's that matt bought for me a couple of weeks ago. i had high hopes for these little guys...but i will never have a green thumb. ever. sorry pretty petals. i did my best.
- i am a sorry excuse for a house wife these days. totally unacceptable when your husband runs out of his skibbies because you're not keeping up on laundry. i'm definitely not doing my best in that area...and need to be better. and don't even get me STARTED on cooking dinner. ugh.
- i had the worst dream about my little sister last night. it dealt with trampling horses and broken bones. all the while, i just stood there and watched. it woke me up and i just couldn't fall back to sleep. matt never dreams. i envy that.
- i am obsessed with looking at baby rooms. its kind of pathetic. i still don't have any set ideas, and really need to find out what this little person is going to be so i have a better idea of what to go off of. two more weeks!
- school's out for the summer in two weeks as well! then we're going on a cruise in three. i love my lifeee.
- i am really into Christy Nockels lately. Sandra McCracken is definitely a favorite of mine, too. her new album is coming out the end of this month and i am so pumped. love her hymns.
- speaking of hymns, i am missing indiana. they hold revival weeks and this week is one of them. you don't realize it at the time, but i took those evenings for granted. such great words spoken in those messages. God really moves.
- do you ever really loathe your attitude? i've become more and more convicted of mine the past couple of weeks. its to the point where i can't stand myself, and have a certain relationship suffering because of it. i am so selfish and set in my own ways of thinking. its not fair. its really ugly. and i really need to get over myself. "and they will know us by our love."
alright! laundry time! :)
Monday, April 5, 2010
"you're going to be such a great mom!"
i've heard that phrase a few times after people found out i was expecting, and every single time i hear it, my heart swells. granted, its a pretty common phrase amongst women who have friends expecting their first child. i've said it a few times myself. but as i get further into this pregnancy, this season, this life altering place...i begin to connect more and more with the cliche phrases.
"i don't care what it is, as long as its healthy."
"i just want whats best for my children."
"it's a different kind of love when you have a child."
this little peanut is still developing. i haven't a clue what its private parts are. there are so many unknowns when it comes to what s/he will look, talk, and act like. but already, there has been such growth inside of me to fight for everything that has anything do with him/her. i am so in love...and can truthfully say - from the deep, unknown parts of me - i never thought i could love this much.
i've heard that phrase a few times after people found out i was expecting, and every single time i hear it, my heart swells. granted, its a pretty common phrase amongst women who have friends expecting their first child. i've said it a few times myself. but as i get further into this pregnancy, this season, this life altering place...i begin to connect more and more with the cliche phrases.
"i don't care what it is, as long as its healthy."
"i just want whats best for my children."
"it's a different kind of love when you have a child."
this little peanut is still developing. i haven't a clue what its private parts are. there are so many unknowns when it comes to what s/he will look, talk, and act like. but already, there has been such growth inside of me to fight for everything that has anything do with him/her. i am so in love...and can truthfully say - from the deep, unknown parts of me - i never thought i could love this much.
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