the bump
babycenter
fit pregnancy
the daily kick
parents community
pregnancy weekly
planning family

these are just some of the websites i look at, emails i receive, and info i've gathered from for the past 9 months. these sites have become part of my morning routine after (literally) rolling out of bed, heading straight to relieve my bladder (before it seemingly feels like its going to do it on its own - with or without the proper setting), fixing myself breakfast, and sitting down at our computer. though the majority of these sites all say the same thing each day, it gives me a small sense of peace as i read each article, search each recall, and smile at each little baby photo/story. i have no idea how to be a mom..but there is a sort of comfort in at least reading about it. even IF its a shallow couple of hours in searching for the perfectly cute and trendy diaper bag...and shamelessly coveting the one coach has designed.

i'm feeling really good, still. this little babe is getting big and taking a toll on all the organs that surround her. i still can't believe we will have a little person living with us in 2 weeks. i can't believe i will no longer be at home alone all day, bored out of my mind. i can't believe we will have a third person to feed, dress, load in the car, and take everywhere we go. i think about all of the things i have to do to get myself out the door...and still manage to forget something(s). hopefully she is never one of them. ;) even sitting here, i start zoning out on how different life will look. our house has been taken over by her pack n play, bouncer, swing, high chair, bassinet, bottles, etc. packed in her drawers and in her closet hangs more outfits than even i own. ok, thats a lie...but the girl has a wardrobe, for sure! i feel like the idea and preparation for her to get here has already changed our lives so much...its crazy in realizing that it hasn't even BEGUN yet.

BUT. She is and will be loved so very much...with or without the trendy diaper bag.

lately, my idea of a good night is sitting at home
[mainly because i have to move around a lot less when i'm there]

and here is my little project for the evening - an ironing board cover. i am loving this sweet sewing class, though i wish the fabric store was a little closer.

my projects so far:

pin cushion


gift bag


tote

a new singer curvy! my early birthday gift!. happy 25th to ME!

today is SUCH an exciting day! for my birthday this year, matt has allowed me to purchase a sewing machine, all the tools needed, and signed me up for a sewing class! i cannot even wait!

updates:

- closing in on four more weeks til baby emery is here. we toured our hospital this morning. it is nothing short of breath-taking...







...did i mention they offer mani/pedi's and a spa service here? as well as a 4 course meal for Matt and I before we leave? hello.

- came home to find that the crib bedding we ordered 3 months ago will not be arriving. back to searching. i am one sad girl.

- yesterday was the baby dedications at church. its my favorite sunday of the month. i cried. matt tapped a drum beat on my shoulder with his thumb the whole time. he really gets into it.

- i am really big. like, REALLY big. sometimes i just don't even know what to do with myself. but i do not enjoy being this large. i do know that. my little heart is full of emotion these days. i'm going to be a mom in a month.

woah.