What.

am i doing awesome at this blogging deal, or what?

i'd just like to point out how right i am. i envisioned this year to be even harder than last year, and 24 days into it, i have proven myself correct.

hello, people...i am pregnant.

Beginning.

I never really get excited about the coming new year. I don't announce resolutions that are made in expectation of a positive movement in my life. I've not had a year that's been so difficult to the point where I can't wait to move past it. This year, however, I feel different. I'm twenty four years old and more days than not, I feel like I have no grasp on who I was, am, and want to be. I'm gathering from older friends that this is a common feeling that takes over in your mid-twenties, so I'm going to cling to that excuse to keep from feeling crazy.

Has this year been difficult? Absolutely. Has it been the hardest yet? You betcha. Will 2010 be any better? Who knows. If its not...I've got to be honest in saying that I would not be the least bit surprised. BUT. I still feel like I have a choice in how I choose to live out some areas in my life. And for that reason, I, Ashley Blahnik have made a New Years Goal list. (Resolutions sound so odd to me, still.)

It goes a little something like this:

1.) I love the idea of a blog. I've tried it a few times, and in those times it has made me really happy. I like writing out my thoughts. I like reading the thoughts of others. I think its a nice little escape for emotion, ideas, and life. So, my goal for 2010 is to commit to blogging.

2.) I have a gym membership. I pay $30 a month for that baby. I signed up in August, was very faithful for the first two months, but since then I've gotten really busy and tired and lazy (and full of excuses). My goal for 2010 is to commit to the gym at least 3 times a week.

3.) Working out ripples into this goal a little bit. I really want to start being more aware of the things that I put in my body. I want to eat healthier, maybe more organic? I hate vegetables and chocolate is wayyy better than fruit, but my goal for 2010 is to try to eat better.

4.) For as long as I can remember, I have prayed for creativity to take over my being. Hasn't happened yet, but I am determined to change it. I want to learn to crochet. Tomorrow, I will buy some yarn, a crochet needle(?), and a how-to book. In 2010, I will learn to crochet...and you may or may not be receiving a tiiiiight scarf for Christmas next year.

5.) I have a terrible vocabulary. I'm fascinated with new words lately, however. I constantly ask poeple "what does that mean?" if I don't understand a particular word I hear. It's a little young sounding, but I don't care. So through that, I have a desire to read more. In 2010, I want to read 30 books. If you have any suggestions for something good, do tell.

I feel like this is a solid, realistic, exciting start to a New Year. This is who I want to be. These are the things that I want to go after.

Aqui nós vamos.