little beluga

and she sings world
i've overcome you world
i've overcome you world
i've overcome by my song and the blood of a son.

for the past few months now, i keep having this dream. it occurs once every couple of weeks. the first few of them were completely identical, ending in the same spot each time - but never ending with a resolution. as i napped this afternoon, i had that dream again. and again it was identical. but this time, the dream was taken a little further. still no resolution but definitely getting closer to it.

first of all, i don't wish to share this dream, as the back story is too personal. but if i could just say...i would rather dream about anything in the world other than this. i can't think of anything else that wrecks my little heart in the way that this dream or the idea of it coming into fruition does. the one thing [besides the feeling i have when i wake up] that i fear most is dreaming it again and learning what the end looks like.

so here's to awful dreams. to confusion and fear. but to a hope that no matter what the outcome is in dream world or real life, the love of God is stronger.